
You ever get to the point in your life when no one else gets why you’re not happy? You lose the weight, find a husband, live in a nice house, drive a nice car, play chaperone to nice children and you make a nice salary at a job full of seemingly nice people, but you’re not happy. I’ll never forget when I found myself stuck, stumbling and waiting for something to happen to me. But I didn’t quite know what it was that I was looking for.
For all intents and purposes, I should have been “fine” because my life was a far cry from the housing projects, basements, foster homes and shelters that once served as a temporary home as I progressed through the hoods in life. And my life was a far cry from the possibilities of what could have happened if I had succumbed to my inner me that always questioned who I thought I was to seek better, who I thought I was to speaker greater and who I thought I was whenever I raised my hand to do more than before. However, I was not happy.
Sulking in the Suburbs
I tried to start a business, but after 2 years I ran back to a law firm. I then joined a few MLM companies only to find that I wasn’t quite interested in building a team so eventually I wondered off. I found myself depressed, but I smiled through it. I mean who would ever have pity on me when I had done the unthinkable and left the ghetto. So I sulked silently in the suburbs.
But God has a way of redirecting your attention by making you see differently; especially when you don’t listen to his whispers or pick up on his hints when he allows things to happen over and over again. So while I was a bit spiritually dull, I was jolted wide awake when I got a telephone call that one of my younger sisters had ended up in the hospital and had a bad prognosis.
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